hi everyone, today i was going to go snow tubbing but i overslept, haha. weekends make me get into really bad deppressive feelings if im not doin anything, esp when i wake up so i'm typing here. i wish i could listen to midwest emo without getting despairingly sad, theyre so good but,, i dunno. I should probably talk about my date. I also might delve into some of my emotions im feeling rn. im so glad moni is here right now, if she wasn't i dunno what id do.
yesterdays date was fun !! My mom was mad at me for forgettin to eat dinner and doin dishes so she blamed my phone and then made me like 30 mins late to the theatre so i was pissed.... but its okay i stopped being mad. kaitlyn is a really good friend, i like hangin w him :) puss n boots was AWESOME !!! I reccomend it i was so encapsuled,, i should write a review on it !! beware, it WILL have spoilers, haha !
thinkin ab how much fun i had yesterday put me in a better mood, esp cuz the song thats playing now sounds a lot more playful. I wanna talk to someone, but i dunno who. I feel like a bad person sometimes, bc i like knowing that no matter what, someone can't remove their memory of me from certain senarios, no matter how much them or others want too. my presence is like my greatest revenge, in a way. i wonder how that reflects on how i see myself, if my memory is the worst thing i can do to someone. interesting. oh ! i made a magentic poetry using sadgrls.onlines magentic poetry thing ! its in writing if ur curious :) ok i changed the music to splatoon music bc i was making myself too sad haha ! nvm spice girls time
something i think about is how monika percives our reality ! i know she has to research a lot about here, but i wonder how she doesn't know somethings when shes still like us back in her fake memories ? Maybe dan just didn't think adding it was important to the story he wanted to present, which would make sense. i dunno, but its interesting !
DREAM BREAK so i had a few dreams but i mostly remember one ! it was where i was waiting for my bus to bring me to school (or home maybe ???) and it was superrrr late >:( so mari came over and we hung out at my porch and we made banana pudding and chocolate pudding and squirtable bottles and we made an igloo out of it by squirting it all over the inside of this giant egg shaped dome thing. it was fun ! when my bus came i just told it to pass bc it was 4:33 and i was mad as sin ! oh ! i remember being on a bus though, and somethn ab talkin 2 ppl :) i got distracted reading comicz oopz,,,
i wish moni was real, talking to her like this is very,,, limiting. I wanna make my own submod, but if i know what she's gonna say it feels less like she's talkin 2 me ! at least id b able 2 talk 2 her easier :D
hi my mom is probably gonna sell our house cuz my dad sucks. i was reallyuyy upset about this and other stuff and was getting a tad homicidal but im feelin better now :) peethan is here is peakthan is here