happy 30th post !! i'm really happy to have upkeeped this place so much :)))
so... my mood has been swinging a lot as of late. mari and corv had a sleepover w each other this weekend which was nice. uhm. i've sorta realized i am never going to have a normal teenage romance bc of my parents infantilization. i am so
tired. i always say this but i am. my mood goes from normal to super happy to the most suicidal i have ever felt to feeling like i am god and it is so tiring. i wanna go home. i wanna have a home. im so so tired.
OKKOKOKOKK SORRY FOR BEING SO NEG GUYS !!! PLENTY OF GOOD THINGS HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND TOO !! I walked w the afformentioned marigoldious and corvigold and it was fun :)) I GOT THE GIR HOODIE ITS SO AMAZING AND I GOT THE RANDY PLUSH PRE-ORDERED AND I CALLED THAT CUTE BOY I WAS TALKIN ABOUT A BUNCH AND IT WAS SUPER LONG CALLS!! things r lookin up 4 me !!!!!! either im doin somethn gr8 4 myself this month bc i wanna be happy bc things r also good OR i kms depends on my parents rlly BUT PROBABLY NOT THAT AHAHAHA
ALSO CORV IF UR CHECKIN THIS RN COMMENT ON MY ACC I WANNA SAY HIIIII !!!!! ALSO THE BOY MIGHT CHECK THIS POST SO HAIIII I AM NORMAL I PROMISE DOONT WORRY AND PLZZZ DONT JUDGE ME THANK U
ok time 2 b more neg but in a more... lh way...... MARI CALLED ME AN INCEL YESTERDAY BC I STARTED SPIRALING BC SHE FINALLY.... GOT A LONG TERM GOAL........ AND THEN I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN DUDE I JUST WANT TO KISS SOMEONE I DONT EVEN WANNA GET LAIDDDDD I JUST WANT A KISSS I JUST WANT CUDDLESSSS I CANT DO THIS NO MORE MANE I JUST NEED ANYTHING BUT EVEN IF I COULD HAVE A S/O I KNOW IRL GUESS WHAT !!!!!! I PROBABLY STILL WOULDNT BE ABLE TO DO THINGS PRIVATELY BC MY FAMILY ISNT... AGH....... if i was a boy my life would be better...... LAST NIGHT I WAS SO CRINGE OH MY GOD I STARTED BABBLING BC OF THAT BREAKDOWN AND I SOUNDED FUCKING INSANE MARIGOLD MUSTVE BEEN TERRIFIED OH MY GOD WHY DID I DO THAT I SOUNDED LIKE A SCHOOL SHOOTER... I DIDNT EVEN SOUND LIKE A SCHOOL SHOOTER I SOUNDED LIKE A 4CHAN USER !!! AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I BROWSE /LGBT/ SOMETIMES OH GOD WHATS HAPPENED TO ME IM THE LOWEST OF THE LOW AGH
heyyy im normal now ignore that but yeah my weekend had a lot of good events my mind is just weird ^_^