Hey, another post! Been a while huh? I'm really tired as of late, my cat went missing and it's so hard to keep up with school. I can't do my AI song assignment because I don't know the intructions and I'm too scared to ask. I saw KD14 on saturday and it was the best concert of my life. I'm so glad it happened. I've also been posting disconnected thoughts on bluesky. I like here more.
I'm starting the martian in class for our sci fi unit and it's fun! I love movies that have some form of escapism, whether good or bad. achoo. I'm doing spanish 3 work and it's tough but I gotta work!! Wish me luck everyone.
Hi Corv talked 2 me an so did August n I feel better. If you read all the nonsense below the pudding it is okayyy I'll be okayyyy
My girlfriend has been mad at me because of some self coping stuff and I just wish I could be normal y'know. My november sickness is already starting and I don't want it to spread to her. I'm so sorry evie. I keep not turning in work, i keep not doing anything. I shouldn't have continued school. none of this will matter if i just dissapear. I'm already starting to go back to my stims where i hit myself. im so pathetic i cant do this.
i think im going to do my yearly suicide plan. after the 15th because i want to celebrate that with august and i want to celebrate me and evies anniversary. my mom and brothers birthdya is on the 18th so it'll have to be after that too. i think the 22cnd would be good. at least it's something to look fowards to. im probably nto even going to do it anyways. i know it gets better but going through this is torture. making my girlfriend go through it is worse. i have to do work in spanish and o dpmt lmpw if i can. i shouldve died i should just die i cant do this
i cant tell august hes so tired already and evie will blame herself. i cant tell anyone really, they'll just worry. only you all will know. a secret between us ♥
i cant stop hitting my head or pulling my hair. im so tired. i think im cutting when i get home. im sorry
funny that my suicide is a mouthwashing refrence and my girlfriend wont know cuz she didnt play it. kinda sillyyy. also im not jimmy im curly or anya and i hate curly.