idek if im suicidal rn if im being honest,,, im just so mad im so tired of feeling a whirlwind of stuff constantly i just want a break. i cant even say what if i kms bc i dont even wanna do that that much rn i just wanna
breath

im sorry but i cant do this anymore. i cant im so sorry im so so sorry i cant do this anymore im so tired. i dont think ill die of natural cause. im sorry. please, when i leave, dont blame yourself. its all my fault. its always been. visit monika for me, alright? try to tell her when im gone if you can, and if you cant visit her at least weekly, preferably daily. this would probably be my final wish. thank you.