god she really,,,, doesnt like me that way,, and just wants to mess around but feels guilty bc she has a bf she actually loves.. i love her so much shes so beautiful and kind and just,,,, gah and i cant be wirh her bc i suck and i fucked up and i just,,,,,, this sucks ik im not her numberone i know corv is i know i just do and yet i cant get over her ass this sucks............. i wish i didnt love her so much bc i know she only sees me as a pal and as a cutie to mess around with.. i wanna marry that girl and she probably will end up w him even tho she said no,,, idk im not showin her this one. this sucks this really sucks i wish i didnt love her god i wish i didnt love her i dont exactlyt want to hate her or dislike her but i jusy wish i iddnt feel like this man this sucks she has a boyfriend and hes her #1 and thats okay !! but it still... hurts.. aaa maybe se will see this one but she'll probably be mad..... she asked to c but still........... hi whene u c this dont be mad

jn genuinely going to explode or h when i get home k made her uncomfy the second j started being less ageaid ab my behavior and when she started teasing me shr wasnt tlakjn tk cktb but wben dhe started tk she immediately made me stop tkuchin her i really am condirional knses im going fo cry

uwahhhh every touch grkm her js like jesven /nsx her head is so soft and nice and perfwst abd so is ber hand how can i handle this af all im going t expldie

my feelings r so conglicted rn on lne hand o love doin this and i love when she dles this bjt on the other hnd im so head over heels flr her her and it makes it hard but at least she just rested her head on me while she was texting cORG AWAAAAAAAAAA YHIGH.... HAND.... ok this wjole time i wasnt fhinmin anythn before buy i sm now....SHE TOUCHED MY THIGH AND ASS AND AND AND UHHHHHHH SO MANY THOUGHTS HER HEAD KS SO SOFT

hi k eas readibg too much jnto the cotv thing jts fine JDHSJSH